i`m sitting here + i just feel like crying for some reason .  i don`t know why , but all of a sudden , i just got really depressed ” / .

Also , if any of you would like an invite , just leave your email address in my Ask Box , + I will gladly send you one !

If so , feel free to leave your name && phone number in my Ask Box ( don`t worry , I won`t publish the post ! ! ) && we can be texting buddies ( : !  I have Unlimited texting , so I would love to have some people to text , because right now nobody ever texts me ) : .

It would be nice if my PS3 got here soon , I`m starting to get tired , &I`ll probably want to go to bed within the next hour or so .  It just sucks having to stay up and wait for UPS to get here ( they usually come to our house really late ) , especially when you have to get up really early the next day .  I just want to have it and set it up already , geez !

I swear to gosh if the power goes out AGAIN like it did yesterday ( it`s thundering &lightning right now ) I will be super pissed ! !  the lights just flickered , ugh ugh ugh , yesterday we were without power for like 6 hours , at which point I just gave up &went to bed because seriously , what can you do in the dark , even with candles it`s still hard to see .  but I swear if the power goes out yet again I will cry because I`ll have absolutely nothing to do , wah ) : .

so I FINALLY made a doctor`s appointment for an orthopedic surgeon about my awful scoliosis .  it has gotten to the point where I am in a lot of pain from it every day , so I really need to see a doctor about it .  I am just very scared because I do not want to have back surgery .  I know they only do back surgery in severe cases , but I`m just really worried that I have a severe case of it &that I`ll end up needing surgery ) : .  I would much rather just wear a brace .